And I made it through the other side.   Lets see how I did….

• Giving up meat, chicken and fish (I managed this)
• Facebook (I failed this)
• Dating Sites (I failed this)
• Chocolate & Sweets (I managed this)
• Crisps (I failed this)
• Sugar (I failed this)
• Fizzy Drinks (I managed this)
• Beer/Alcohol (I managed this – besides 2 Jack Daniels and Cokes, but not beer though.)

As for the list of things I was going to do everyday, it was inconsistant.

Big plans coming in a weeks time.

So, what are you giving up for lent in 2012?

Well, I am going to give up the following

• Giving up meat, chicken and fish
• Facebook
• Dating Sites
• Chocolate & Sweets
• Crisps
• Sugar
• Fizzy Drinks
• Beer/Alcohol

It seems like a lot, but I recently did the Daniel fast, and I thought it was brilliant, so I am into that.   I will write how I am getting on.   These are things I am going to give up.   I am going to replace them with the following.

• I am going to work out.
• I am going read every night.
• Draw a little every day
• Pray everyday
• Work on a website everyday

So then trust old issues and headaches to resurface and through shit back into the mix.

I guess I am in that same place where someone who has done so well dieting or not smoking and then falls for a cheeky snack or cigarette.

Without going into detail, I can see I generally relapse every 7 weeks.  Sometimes I can go for longer.

I can pray for strenght, focus and perseverance because there is nothing more alarming than the horrible feelings that consume me once I know I have been defeated.

I have big plans for this year.    As always, they fall into the same categories as before.   I guess this keys to this year are discipline, determination, decisiveness and discipleship.

Life

Well.  Life was awesome last year.  I can honestly say that.  At the beginning of the year, I made my resolutions in front of God with clear focus.   I asked him for things and I offered in return.  All of my prayers were answered.  It was a truely remarkable year.

This year I writing for 2 blogs as well as managing this one (which WILL be up to date).  I am also setting up several online businesses.

Love

Love was interesting last year.  The story of my ex and I came to a close with her removing me as a friend of FB.  It ended amicably, and I doubt I will hear from her again.

I met a lovely woman online last year and we are planning to meet in the coming year.  Its purely as friends, but there is a strong connection there.  I guess I am not getting my hopes up, but we get a long very well.

I have also decided to knock dating sites on the head.  I have been a member of everyone under the sun.  And I am just tired of it all.  I tried it and it didn’t work.  Next.

Money

Last year I started Tithing.  In response to this, my finances have stablised and seen growth and in turn, I have savings as well as clearing my student loan (after 13 yrs).  I have one final outstanding debt, which is a interest free family loan.  I aim to have saved the money for that in a years time.

Health

A few health problems last year made me really take notice of where things are at with me.

I have set up a new blog called Alka-living, which I am aiming to document a diet/lifestyle which will work around alkaline and rawfood diets, but can be used for building body mass as well.

A summary of the year coming up and a revitalised blog coming up in the new year

• Alkaline Diets
• A more disciplined way of approaching things
• Travelling
• Online Sermons
• Faith and Healing, both physically and spiritually
• more illustration and illustration possibilities.  (Hopefully)
• completing websites
• sobriety

And whatever God has in store for me.

Work and Career.

What would give me soul satisfaction and how would I specifically excel in making money.  These are 2 different area’s.

What would give me soul satisfaction?

Soul Deep Satisfaction is found by following the soul path which is indicated by the North Node.  The Sign, House and aspects to it all give great indication as to what.

North Node is in Libra, in the 2nd House.  Opposite Moon, and trine Jupiter.  I do need to earn a living.  To make my own way financially and learn the lessons of doing so.

Libra or venus ruled things as venus rules Libra.  Thing that have to do with beautification or any kind.   Beauty or fashion, interior design,  architecture and landscape design, grooming or hair salon.   Anything that involves making the world a better looking place.  Graphic Design, WEB DESIGN, and thing with design after it.

A little less, but it implies to music. Musical beauty.

I am happy when creating beauty.

Libra also rules partnerships.   So I would be happy if I had a business partner, as long as it was a 50/50 split, and/or I was 50% responsible for the success.  I’d be happier with a partner rather than sole trader.

Soul perspectives.  You DO need to be in relationships. Partners in life in general.  I feel like I need to be in a relationship (and yet I’ve spent most of my life alone – hmmm).  Thats more of a non business thing though.

Important not to let emotions drag you away from dealing with business, taking care of business.   There are times when my impulsiveness, (my aries moon) drags me off task.  Important to keep eye on the ball, keep focused.  Dont get caught up with emotional reactivity.

Jupiter – trine – North Node.  A career that allows you to do good for others.  Making someones life better in someway supports the making someones world more attractive.  This will fill the soul satisfaction.

What types of pursuits will allow me to make the most money for me?

Mars comes up that rules me making money.  4 different pairings all include mars.

Going after something with Martian determination, forcefulness, displaying leadership, maybe something athletic.  Using determination.  Something involving the public or the internet.  Something like selling athletic shoes on-line.  ha ha

Using Uranus influences as well (I think Mars and Uranus form some kind of aspect).   It rules, computers, the internet, the general public, astrology, fame.   Doing any one of these  in some forceful and dynamic way, or a mars ruled business on the internet.

Neptune ruled businesses as well.  Neptune rules real estate, minerals,medicine, music, co-rules artistic pursuits (would I have made it in the band, with a little more oomph?).

Mars – Ceres as well.  Ceres rules the Mars business.

Mars – Uranus – towards fame.

Mars – Neptune – creative ideas, creativity, new ideas, artistry, new theories.

Mars – Saturn -

Jupiter/Pluto Magi Quad.

Venus (soul satisfaction) and Mars (business) energy combined……..working in the sexual business/ sex industry.  Mars and Venus heavily involved in athletics, or bring beauty to sex…….designing lingerie.

Jupiter –  Pluto Magi Quads all contain Mars.  They indicate where to make the most money.   Be in the  Mars business, but using a Venus tilt.

Mars Energy needs to be channelled.   Mars for money.  Venus for soul satisfaction.  Combine the 2.  Need to be aggressive and driving, but making beauty, for the benefit of other people.

This will give me the ultimate job.

Then answered a few questions and talked a little about astrocartography.

I had this reading in February 2010.

Health

• I was back on the wagon again.   Sweet products have disappeared.  Then at the end of the month, came back with their mates, and I got my ass whooped.
• I’m still cycling to work.  I think on the tail end of an unhealthy August, I’m not fueling my body with the right foods, so I’m tired when cycling home, despite the fact that I do it every day.
  
• The diet is not so varied as it was back in June.
  1. Because I cannot afford it, and
  2. I dont feel the need.
  It might seem a little boring (but I am only cooking for me, so meh!!), but I have a 2 week dinner and lunch plan which suits the budget AND the body.   I treat myself once a week to cake or something.  I have still not had a chocolate bar since June.
• I have not touched the weights this month.  They just sit there, making me feel guilty.
• All the ‘muscle’ I acquired, has since disappeared.

Love

• Its been tough.  I make mistakes.  I get up and I hope that I dont make them again.  I need to stop beating myself up about these things.  The past is the past.  It happened, it probably wont happen again.  Leave it Terry.
• No luck on the numerous dating sites that I am on.  I’m paying on 2 of them now.  *spams forehead* Again, lots of views, not a lot of communication.  Some woman actually wanted me to pay for her to contact me.

Money

• My rebate is in the post.  I’m not sure how much I am entitled to.  I’m not greedy, so anything is better than nothing.  it was 2 yrs of contracting on emergency tax and gaps of unemployment.  Watch this space…
• FUCK yeah, my rebate came through.  I paid off my overdraft, and still had £900+ to play with, and then I got paid a week later.  Winner.
• I paid for 5 of us to go on holiday in November.  Although I will get the money back, I have to wait for the whole month to receive it.   So September was tighter than a tight thing that wrote a book on living tightly.
• I started my selling of all my old shit.   I couldn’t get rid of my comics, but they took my graphic novels for less than it cost to get to the store.  FAIL.
• Listed all my VHS on Ebay.  Watch this space…

Soul

• I have been praying a lot.   And I like it.  I have been reading Mark Brown’s posts on Facebook and on You Tube.   Finally, understanding the bible in a way/medium I can relate to and understand and fitting examples of my life that apply to me.   I am just really enjoying it.
• I sat down and had a long and deep thought process about being self employed.   I thought out a plan and a timescale that is actually manageable and actually within my grasp.
• I am still helping people with their websites and it makes me feel good.  I should probably charge more.  I think I just like being of help.
• I knocked out 3 illustrations for a small project I decided to do to increase my portfolio.
• I am going to sell all my stuff I do not own (see above)
• I am at piece with everyone in the family, more so afterhte clear the air scenerio with my dad on holiday.
• I went to see some bands at the weekend.  I miss being in a band.  And I think I want to play live again.   Fuck it.  I’m too old to be famous and ‘make it’ if you can even call it that.  But I love playing.  And I love rocking out.

Check back in a month….

Health

• I freely admit that the diet has slipped a little.  But I am still eating FAR better than what I was this time last year.  But there are weddings, stag doo’s, birthdays and catch-ups which tend to involve bad, but great tasting food and a lot of beer.
• I have been fried a couple of times in the sun, so I am still not sure if the skin issue is being resolved.
• The wrist is almost fully functional again, after ebing out of action for what seems like forever.
• I have even begun to slip up a little on the weights.   It annoys me that I cannot maintain the level of gained muscle if I take a few days off.  Its like they just deflate.

Love

• All leads on the dating front have ceased to be.  Oh well.
• I get a lot of looks on the dating websites, but I am not getting any interest.  I’ve tried tweaking my profile to make me more interesting…….nope, still nothing.

Money

• This month was worst than last month.  A wedding and a stag do both cost monies.
• I also discovered I owed a fine from over 2 yrs ago, and I have to pay it, to avoid court appearances.   Great timing life.
• Healthy eating is not cheap and triples my food bill in costs.

Soul

• Last month, I redesigned my portfolio site.  This month, I have reskinned this blog.  I hope you like it.
• Work has begun (finally) on a project, that I have been siting on for over 10 yrs.
• I am still going through all of my old paper work and throwing absolutely everything out.   I dont need it, or use it…..it goes.
• I am at piece with everyone in the family.  Long may it continue.

Check back in a month….

So I thought I would write this down and let me people make up there own minds. I am happy to invite comparrisons from people that dont do Magi Astrology to compare to ‘normal’ birthchart readings.   This is the first bit.  Second part will come up later.

So this is me writing down what I have from a saved conversation.

Sun in Cancer (16°), Moon in Aries (18°) and Ascendant in Virgo (17°) and other planets are in sync also.   Saturn is at 15°, trine moon.  Vesta at 19°,  just wide of Saturn conjunction;  Juno at 14° Trine Sun, Square Saturn.

Neptune at 13° trine saturn, quinqunx sun. An iron butterfly between juno and moon. A few minutes out of orb.

What does it all mean.

• Saturn square Juno – Tugs in me between fantasy and reality.
• Moon sq sun and moon trine saturn both have diffulty in being intouch with emotions. Trouble getting in touch with feelings.
• Saturn trine moon – someone who keeps there feelings under wraps. Aries moon is more interested in exciting things and not very gushy.
• Saturn sq Juno – Sometimes I am pragmatic, and sometimes changable and often wearing rose coloured glasses.
• Lovely Sun / Neptune.   Very Creative and I look very young for age.
• Vesta trine moon.  Feelings run deep.  Sweet and gentleness.  You have a good heart, your just not very revealing.
• A long bow/minor grand trine.  Jupiter /Vesta /Moon.  – When you find someone worthy, you are INCREDIBLY loyal.  Will give enormous devotion.
• Uranus op Chiron – You have a need for space.   A scenario like a  long distance relationship is not surprising.  Space seems necessary
• Mars – sextile – Mercury – quick brain and to understand,you pick things up quickly.
• Jupiter sextile Vesta -
• (Kite sync) Pallas – Pluto – a little bit obsessive.   Fixated and focus, difficult to shift gears or remove focus
• Mars – Venus parallel.  Its a sexual aspect.   This basically means you get switches on and then switched off.  Someone switches you on and then intermitently switches you off.  Or if someone pushes you too far or you lose patience or love, you remained switched off.  Its like a on/off switch with the sexuality/sexual feelings.  Sometimes on, sometimes off.
  • Need to learn to identify what creates the switched off response and pay attention to when it happens.  Figure it out.  And then address it.  Thats just how you are wired.
• Jupiter/sun/mercury triple parallel – and extra dose of kindness, fair minded and you give people the benefit of doubt.
• Uranus/Chiron – Quantra paralell as well as opposition.  Enhances the need for freedom and space creating fear of emmeshment, strangling you, sucking you dry and being tangled up with someone.

Helio chart things also.

• Confusion.   You give mixed messages.
• Sometimes people think I am mad at them and they cannot work out why.  I guess I give people that impression.
• Sometimes I am cynical and sometimes I am too idealistic.  I need to be a little more moderate.  Dont dive into relationships.  Take it slow.   Trust is not a wide open door, nor be shut.  Needs to be gradually earnt.
• See saw between over idealistic and having such high expectations and then if I get burnt I become cynical.   Need a middle ground.
• I’ve probably broken a heart or 2.
• You beat yourself up ENORMOUSLY.  Too kind a man to not notice when you have hurt someone.  And it bothers you.
• Slightly obsessive, you really dream hard about true love.
• Sometime I get angry when people push me past comfort zone, threatened or insecure.
• Quite a thinker in business.   Thinking is normally far out on a limb and astonishing thinking, but every once in a while you end up going down the wrong alley.

She then talks about Kelli.

Kelli and I have soulmate connections, but a lot of clashes.  More clashes coming from her.  Right off the bat, it is NOT a good relationship.   A lot of captivation placing ‘holds’ on each other.  Confused each other.   Broke each others heart.

Run away, dont walk.  More trouble than its worth.  It would not work out.  She is not the one.  Not even close.

Well, that conflicts a lot with what this guy said about Kelli and I. (about halfway down)