When I was 30, the company I was working at decided not to renew my contract. I went in one day and they asked me to leave saying my contract was up for renewal and they were taking the option not to renew it.

There was a few cuts made that month, but it sucked.

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I would have said that I actually think I am on the right path with things in my life.  Well, for the most part.  For many years, I was miserable and fed up.  But in my 30th year, I guess I started listening to what I wanted to do, rather than other people and the rest they say is history.

Even though my life is not exactly how I want it to be, I am the instigator of change.

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I need to start  getting my life together.    I guess I have been floating in all areas for a long time.  And its just a non logical and ignorant way to go about things.  It all came to a head recently when I started getting pains in my chest. Under panic, I decided a lot needed sorting out in my life.

The main areas are all areas that most people can relate to.

• Love/Relationships
• Money/Finances
• Health/Fitness
• Spirituality/Soul Satisfaction

I don’t think it needs anymore explanation than that really.

I didn’t know how I was going to approach this one. So I guess I start at the beginning.

I was baptised, christened, had holy communion, and I have been confirmed. All by 15. My mum did it all. Or a least imposed it on me.

I didn’t like church, and I got a ‘G’ grade at GCSE level for religion. That is one up from a fail. I was not into religion. A lot of people are uncomfortable with religion, being forced upon them and preached to. Me included. I would spend all my lessons drawing. I even drew on the exam paper!

So for those kind of reasons, I was really put off. I guess I didn’t understand a lot of it either.

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I hate my job

I thought I might document this list because I have always felt disappointed with my life, regarding job and career choices.  Generally unfulfilled, unsatisfied and hating all of my jobs.  In fact my mum always used to say “I wish you could just find a job that you liked”.  I know one of my pet hates is mundane and repetitiveness, and I also find it difficult to accept orders from bosses that I have no respect for, or I believe are incompetent.

Looking at where I am now, and what I am about to achieve, I thought to have a path of how I got here, my serve as some kind of cleansing purpose, or maybe to document that I took a lot of wrongs before getting it right.

This is completely different from my academic route where I studied Art.  I have;

• BTEC First Diploma in Art & Design
• BTEC National Diploma in Art & Design
• HND 3D Design/Model making, but after the first year, I changed it to;
• HND Design Crafts, and specialised in Ceramic Sculpture.

So from 15 years of age onwards, these are all of my jobs.  Some overlapped the others where I had 2 or 3 jobs on the go.  Sometimes, I kept these jobs whilst I was studying as well.

• Paper-boy (2 months) – This was my first job.  I remember I got £2 a day. It was okay, but the bike was too big for me and I fell off on more than one occasion, and once into the nettles.  I also tried to short cut my round after I had been doing it for a while, but I ended up messing the round up.  Note:  Short cuts don’t work.
• Cleaner (1 day) - Helping my mother with her company for a day.  It was a real hard graft.  It was a deep clean in a house.  Literally a toothbrush job to very surface.
• Telesales (8 months) – Local newspaper delivery subscriptions (8 months).  Not bad.  My first office job, but I didn’t like the boss, or his subordinate.  But the job was not bad.  The people were friendly enough.  It was hard ringing people up in the evening, and some of the abuse I got.  It was hard to take.  I was only 16 as well
• Burger King (4 years) -  Not bad.  Got me through college and university.  I made a lot of friends here.  We had some stories and good times.  I would normally just work Saturdays.  Sometimes I would go into work in the evenings and help them close down.  It was all just a little extra money.
• Cleaner (6 months) – Not bad, but I hated doing it. It was a 6:00am to 8:00am position.  I wanted to drink and have fun at Uni, and more often than not, I had to go to work on a few hours sleep.  Started off with a daily morning shift, but then I would do the evening shift as well, in an effort to get more money.  In the first year of Uni, it was like a party, but in the second year, it was a hard graft.
• Burger King(8 months) – I went here full time after university was over.  Had a lot of fun here, but now that I was full time, I noticed the pay was terrible and I was getting a bit to old for it.  It was a lot of young people here.
• Cafe Select (5 months) – I transferred to Cafe Select from Burger King, because it was the same management.  It was an early rising job as well.  But there was a lot more interaction with the customers, which I liked.  They were not quite as rude as the clientèle that frequented Burger King.  I enjoyed the “I’m in charge” feeling about it, but I guess after a while, it started to grate on me a bit.
• Window Cleaner (5 weeks) – A job working ‘the lads’.  I liked being out and about, but I was too short to be a window cleaner.  I had to carry a crate with me everywhere and stand on it, just so I could reach the ground floor windows.  And as for the top windows?  Don’t get me started…..I am scared of heights.  The ladders were really heavy for me, and really dug into my rather thin frame.  My boss and I mutually agreed that I should knock it on the head.
• Drainage Engineer (6 months) - A shit job – literally.  bad hours, bad pay, going down drains all day, putting miniature camera’s down pipes to check their conditions.  More often than not, it was an early rise, and a late ride home.  I was normally really cold and tired all the time.  The people I worked with were okay, I guess, but I did not click with them.  I think it might have been the age gap.
• Drainage Engineer (6 months).  One the jobs, was a night shift job.
• Temping (3 days) – Making cardboard boxes (a week)
• Youth Art Co-ordinator (6 months).  This was actually a really good position.  I enjoyed it a lot, but it was only a part-time role, and I did not drive at the time.
• Cleaner (4 months) ndnv
• Pensions Administrator (3 years) ndnv
• Labourer (1 week) (whilst travelling through Australia – Stripping bathrooms)
• Labourer (1 month) (Cleaning plastic chairs with this stuff that stripped the skin off my hands.  Had to clean over 2000 chairs – whilst travelling through Australia)
• Postman (1 month)
• Cold Room Assistant (10 months) – (putting dead fish into boxes for restaurants. 11.5 hours a day.  Up at 4:30.  Temperature was about 2 degrees. My pay was messed up for the first 4 months.  The bosses were idiots.  Just a big no no – 10 Months)

• I went back to college to study web design.

• Warehouse Worker (1 week) – Putting boxes into the back of a lorry.  Also converyor belt work
  
• Database Administration. (4 months) – I had a temp job working with a few former colleagues from Aon, at a new place.  It was basically database administration.  It was cool working with friends again, but the work was very boring.  On more than one occasion, I probably fell asleep at my desk.
• Warehouse worker, whilst I was studying.  I had several positions in warehouses.  The kind of position that had a high turnover of staff.  I hated both of them.  Both of them collectively lasted a month.
• Warehouse worker (1 month).  This time the people were not so bad.  Working for a company that made mobility chairs and baths.
• Web Content Editor (10 months) This time the people were not so bad.  Working for a company that made mobility chairs and baths.

• Web Designer/ Content Editor

Now I can say after all of the above, that I am self employed and loving it.  It makes my time in sewer’s, and freezing in the freezer, putting fish into boxes, seem so worth it now.  All the jobs that I had to get up in the dead of night, in the cold.  I am someone that I am not afraid of a bit of hard work, but I like just rewards and I like to see that things are ACTUALLY happening.

Maybe after a shit 10 years of achieving nothing (that’s what it has felt like), it is time to get some rewards.

My own personal businesses include:

• www.personalpoet.com
• www.imnotbald.com
• www.tutor4computer.com

And I am looking to expand.

Watch this space…

So…. I’m 31 years of age.  And I have just started blogging.  Why?  who knows.  I did a bit of blogging before but stopped because I couldn’t get any traffic throughout the rise and fall of Myspace.

I am going to share a lot here.  Thought’s on everything.  And I welcome people posting comments.

I guess I am at a transitional stage in my life where I want to talk about a lot of things not only happening in my life, but happening throughout the world in general.

So this is the first of hopefully many blogs.  Some about me, some about things I think about.

You lucky lucky people